Look Forward to My Birthday

When I'm in primary school.. I celebrated my birthday with my the most best friend,YanJin together every year.. She is same birthday with me!! I'm so lucky to have a  best friend which same birthday with me so we can celebrated it together.. But our friends need to prepare 2 presents at the same time ><
Since we come to secondary school.. she got her new friends and she got so many things to busy... Me too.. But until today.. still nobody can replace her in my heart.. I can't say that now she is still the most best friend for me but her position in my heart will never change.. And who is my most best friend currently?? I don't know..
And since secondary school.. we already didn't celebrate our birthday together for few years.. And this few years, I also didn't celebrate it with other people.. And I'm so LUCKY that this few years my birthday is in exam week.. Pity me /.\
Actually.. I love my birthday and Christmas the most.. But I am alone during my birthday and Christmas this few years..
This few years.. I didn't celebrate my birthday but I always looking forward to it... But every year I get disappointed and I just celebrate it for myself..
This year.. I am looking forward too.. this year birthday finally is on holiday.. But activities' day!!
I know it will just be the same as last few years.. But I don't know why am I still looking forward..
I always imagine that somebody will give me surprise or what.. I imagine every year.. But it never happen.. It just a dream.. a sweet sweet dream..
Recently.. I keep asking my friends remember buy present for me.. many of them don't even know when is my birthday.. But I not really care it.. And I not really want presents.. I just hope somebody will celebrate my birthday with me.. I don't want alone anymore!! = = No matter how will my birthday in 2012 be..It is not important anymore... As long as I become more mature and independent :)