I had been appreciated by HIM :)

Today.. Dinner with mum and brother..
Then my mum talk about my cousin,Vincent and his girlfriend..
His mum,aunt and grandma beh tahan his girlfriend..
Cause she just know sleep and eat.. Didn't continue study.. Didn't work.. Fine..
But whole day stay at house.. But didn't do housework!!
My mum just now talk to my brother..
She said 'You better don't find a girlfriend like her.. Abo you will die..'
and My brother said ' IMPOSSIBLE.. cause I have a sister serve me everyday d.. and I already be used to it!'
My mind suddenly pop out something that I want to tell..
'You finally know how important am I in your life yaa? You can't live without me!'
But at last. I just say the 2nd sentence..
I know that he actually appreciate me.. Just he didn't show it out..
My mum then say 'wa.. you now ka know you so over ar?? all the housework also call sister do..'
Actually.. I already be used to do those thing.. I didn't mind at all..
After chat awhile..
My bro said that 'Nowadays ehh girls bo do housework liao eh laa.. all ma si boys do ehh.. But luckily my sister know how to do housework well..'
Wahahaha.. Must know laa.. I am 贤妻良母 lehh ><
So.. Boys... If you can be my boyfriend or even husband..
You will be very lucky lurr!! xDD
Actually I am happy when he said that.. :)

Just now my bro also said that.. 'I won't pat toh now.. I can't feed myself well yet.. How to pat toh?'
My mum and I agree what he said..
And I said 'mummy arr.. if now I tell you that I am pat toh-ing.. what is your response.?
She said:'I don't care..'
I said 'Nah.. If I really pat toh.. I see you care or not...'
Actually I ask her this question many time d.. Every time she give the same response..==
My bro then say 'aiyaa.. if you got boyfriend.. your boyfriend also must be hehs de laa... How come you will know very far eh people..??'
Lol.. I can't 一见钟情 with a boy at a street or what??

actually.. I have no confidence in relationship..
and.. I don't think in a relationship is better than single :)

我也有认真 无情的时候

我发现

不管我再认真

都没有人真正在乎

也许

我给别人的印象

就是每天嘻嘻哈哈的女生

在我认真的工作时

从你的眼神中

我看得出

你对我很不信任

你总觉得我在开玩笑

你觉得我很随便

我感觉得出来

我可以从你的眼神里知道

你在想什么

今天的我忽然变得没有那么的有感情

当我得知某某人入院时

出现在我脑海的第一句话竟然是

有些人根本不值得同情

不值得去探望

天啊!!

我没想到我竟然可以这样

但 其实我本来就不喜欢那个人

And finally..

I finish reading..

咩咩国 求生计 by JiaYen Lai :)

If you don't like to travel.

And you don't have curiosity about the life of travelling..

You won't like this book :)

I like this paragraph the most :)

Lucky and Happy Day

今天的我
心情很不错 :)
和XinYee分享了和哥哥的事情
他不能接受
他说我们的关系太奥妙 = =
我觉得很正常啊
如果有一天我们变到很亲密
那 我们都发烧了><

放学了..
和SueYing去5M1..
遇见WenHow, KunShen & KahDong..
我开玩笑的跟WenHow说
喂  我生日要到了  请我吃东西呀??
起初 他问我要吃什么
我说 随便一碗面就行了
过后他说请我吃面包
我说好吃的就可以
不久后  他竟然说 请你吃 buffet
OMG!!!!
我只是开玩笑而已
他再次的对我这样认真.. /.\

放学了
遇见YeeBeng..  他请我喝两杯水
过后 JyyChyi又请我吃 "finger"
Wahahaha.. 真的谢谢啦!! :D

过后和Aaron一起吃
他去complaint JieWei
我和SueYing跟他一起
Complaint 完毕后
原来我的小帅哥
帮我做了很多秘书的工作
真的非常谢谢!!
那么爱你 是值得的 xDDD

由于剩太多时间
我和SueYing练习口试
我们第一次那么认真 xD

之后 就去色组练习
我们很high的一直唱歌
还说要和4M2/2011的朋友一起去比赛
我们真的太疯狂了
但我们就是开心
参赛只不过是为了为彼此留下一个特别的回忆
重点是
我们都一样爱唱歌
我们都一样疯狂

不幸的是
我跌倒了
脚再次受伤
但不算什么
重要的是 我真的很开心 :D

Luckily.. I have them

Today really very pekchek!!
I really wanna go and complaint the STUPID BITCH Hamida!!
I don't know why she can be a teacher.. /.\
1st time meet a teacher like her..
Don't know how to teach.. Fine!
The most worst thing is she is NOT responsible at all!!
Let her teach..
I am wondering that will my Moral fail??

I miss you.. My beloved Cik Tiviya :'(

During recess time..
Meet RuSin...
She complain those Interact things to me and WenXin again..
Me and WenXin also keep scolding together..
Really beh tahan those committee in Form4..
But what can we do??
I'm so agree what WenXin and RuSin said just now..
They said '不是我们没有实力 
你们根本没有给我们机会展现我们的实力
那你们怎么可以说 我们没有实力呢? '
And I said something that just comfort ourselves..
'有实力的人总是低调 不需要那么张扬'
RuSin keep saying that they are 靠关系..
Everybody know it..
And I really kisiao and said
对咯 我们何必委屈自己和他们拍拖?
我们有实力 不需要靠这种关系!!
WenXin and Rusin keep laughing after I said that.. ==
Actually I'm really serious..
Why they keep laughing??
I looks funny?? Or they are so cute?? Hmm..
I think this is the 1st time they see me so siao guaa...

Now..
They are lucky than us..
We never have a chance to show our potential..
But they do..
I always comfort myself..
Don't need so angry..
是你的就是你的 不是你的 求也求不来
And
I said this many time d..
我总是相信
我们所付出的
总有一天
老天会感动
有人会珍惜
你们不会珍惜 那是因为你们根本没有那个福气

Luckily..
I have my dearest 2011 classmates :)
Every time I meet them..
I feel happy automatically..
They always know how to let me smile :)
I can forget those unhappy things when join with them..
They are really great!!
I really love them much..
Best classmates ever and ever.. ♥
Thanks God bring them to my side...

不勇敢

从以前到现在

我一直不停的讲说

我要成为一个有性格的人 甚至冷血无情

因为我很不喜欢自己那么多愁善感

总是感情用事 容易心软

可是 说了那么多年

我做到了吗?

我不仅没有成功 

而且是  彻彻底底地失败了..

就连说出想要说的东西

我都觉得很困难

正在怀疑是不是真的太没用了

丢了女生们的脸

Interact 说要去金马伦

我第一个念头想问的就是 爸爸

因为他一定答应

问了妈妈  他一定叫我去跟爸爸拿钱

但 在爸爸面前

我始终问不出口

回到家 就直接打电话问妈妈

他没给我答复

直到第二天  他答应了

预料之内 

要我和爸爸讨钱

我知道爸爸一定答应

但我就是开不了口

为什么

也许我自己也认为自己太自私了吧

需要钱时  总是找爸爸

还有 最近邻居养了一只狗

其实 我不讨厌狗

我只是害怕

那么多年了 我始终克服不了

但 我至少不会大喊大叫了

我也变得冷静了

我很不爽的是

他明知道我怕狗

却一直放它出来

他绑着它  那还好

有时甚至让它四处走

让他大小便在我家门前

拜托!!

现在整条走廊是你娘的啊??!!

你想怎样就怎样啊??!!

对, 他过后有清理掉

但 我就是不喜欢!!

总是搞到我家门前的地上湿湿的

拖鞋也湿了

还留下一股臭味

我就是那么有洁癖

我就是那么的不爽

我就是那么的自私

可是 我有说出来吗??

我没有..

为什么??

就是没那个勇气...

只是说出自己的想法

只是问意见

只是想得到准许

真的有那么难吗??

为什么我就是做不到??

我真的很佩服  

那些女生那么有性格 但不粗俗

我到底几时才可以勇敢?

几时才可以有自己那么一点点的性格?

压力... 努力...

身为秘书
每天都要更新离SPM的日子
看着那数目
一天比一天少
心里越来越害怕
我不知哪来的力量
我感觉那力量
一直在提醒着我
"一定要努力!"

其实 我也不是很清楚自己的目标
但是 就是会感觉到很莫名的压力
而且 我感觉到这压力
一天比一天多

补习时
不管有多累
我都会撑到最后
我的态度比往年改变了许多
可是 我还是没有开始在家自己做温习
我还是需要别人来推我走
我知道不可以在这样下去
我就是这样 只会想 但从来不行动 所以一次又一次的让自己后悔

每天放学回家 我真的很累
我一定要睡个午觉
自己知道本身的身体状况一向来很差
自己也很清楚明白
我不是公主
就算病了 又怎样??
整天躺在床上 等别人来照顾 等别人来同情吗??
如果可以选择 我还是要做回现在的自己
不是每一件事都要靠人
我要很自立的懂得处理每一件事
而且 我很不喜欢
别人用同情的眼神看我
我不需要你们的同情
如果我选择做公主
我自己也会看不起自己

中五的生活真的比往年累很多
但我知道 我一定可以
如果我这样也撑不住 那未来的日子怎么办
我知道 也许付出是不会有结果
但是 我还是坚持
不管怎样 我一定要努力
我从来不要求自己的成绩要多好
但至少我尽了我的努力
我对得起自己

现实社会中
除了努力 还是要靠幸运
我知道 我一直以来的运气都不是很好
但 我不在乎
至少 我努力
我可以比别人付出多100倍 1000倍
因为我还是一直相信
有一天 老天会感动 有人会珍惜

中五的日子有几多个一百天??

Woohoooo!! Finally I done those magazine works!!
I really spend many time to know my new classmates.. Not just know their name.. still need to observe them..
This is hard but also a good things!! I can know them better in so short time!! :D
First of all.. Thanks to MengJin help me design the background and think a poem for me (but I didn't use the poem= =)
And.. Thanks to RuShuang give me some points to describe some of them... Thanks XinYee give me more idea in my theme and help me describe some of them too... And some more I would like to thanks FangYen,SueYing and ChenLiang.. Although they just help me a bit.. But also thanks laa :)

I let few of them see what I write. Some of them say I write too over d.. I describe them too good d >< Impossible write bo good eh maa.. They keep laughing when they see what I write about them xD

While doing those thing.. I learned many.. I learned how to get to know new friends better.. How to be more independent... And I improve my chinese too.. Whee :)
And.. I suddenly admire myself :P Feel that my observation beh pai lurr>< In a so short time.. I done all the things!! hehe

But.. after done those thing..
我才发现
距离我毕业的日子越来越近
很快很快的
我将离开这个校园
离开我最亲爱的老师 兄弟姐妹 朋友

时间真的是一个小偷
偷走了我的青春
偷走了我错过的许多小事
时间飞逝
我将参加我人生的第3个毕业典礼
我相信这也是我最不想参加的毕业典礼
我可以 把手表的时间暂停
我可以 让家里的时钟不再转动
我可以 把我电话的时间一直往后退
但实际上 我根本不能掌控时间的流逝
很快的 我将步入人生的另一个旅程

人家说 当你出来社会工作时
你就会想念读书的时期
我还没踏出社会
我就那么舍不得
读书时期的压力永远不会比工作时的压力多
最美好的回忆永远都是在读书时期

我一直说
毕业之后
我要做的第一件事
就是改变自己
有很多朋友都说
不要! 做回你本来的自己! 我很喜欢现在的你
亲爱的朋友们
我只是改变我的装扮
也会改变那个稚气的我变得更成熟
不要那么担心 也谢谢你们喜欢现在的我 :)
我不会改变太多 除了装扮上
因为我也蛮喜欢现在的我 :D

有妹妹真好

和我比较熟的人都知道, 兄弟姐妹对我来说是最重要的. 他们永远排第一.
但其实, 兄,弟,姐,妹,我都有...只是妹妹和我比较熟...
我一向来都对他们很好 ,一直都很宠他们.. 已经有很多人说.. 他们怎么好像都是你的亲兄弟i姐妹呢? 我也不知道.. 而值不值得我对他们那么好? 我的答案就是---只要我愿意就好!!
其实为什么我会对他们那么好?? 是因为我希望我也有人那么疼我...但如果现在有人对我那么好,也许我不会习惯吧?? 毕竟那么多年过的都是比较自立的生活...
我相信很多人和我一样...希望有人疼...所以我会对他们好...因为我希望他们幸福...
其实我比较渴望有姐姐..我觉得姐姐和我同样是女生,他比我大,经历的事比较多,要和姐姐说心事应该很不错... :)
但目前我只有一个姐姐--sufen...但我不是真的跟他很熟..但我相信 如果我有事,他一定会帮我!!

说真的..除了对他们好,还是对他们好..我只想要他们开心...只要看到他们的笑容,我也会很开心..跟他们在一起的时候,就算有再多的烦恼,也会瞬间消失...
我一直尽我的全力帮他们,甚至维护他们...我不想看到他们受到伤害...我也不允许任何人伤害他们!!

刚才当wenxin说,有我这个姐姐很幸福的时候, 我真的感到很欣慰... 因为我知道, 他感受到我对他的好, 他会珍惜... 这样的话.. 我相信他也很爱我... ;) 我从来不会想要得到任何回报...但真正有回报的时候,那个感觉真的很棒... :D
自恋的我还说:'你很幸运,因为你有我这个姐姐对你那么好...不是每个人都可以拥有的咯' ><

最近我写的blog..wenxin有看到..
在写那个post的时候, 我知道如果有看我的blog的人, 也许会讨厌我...
但刚才wenxin 竟然问我最近是不是发生什么事。。我说了那件事, 然后我说'我知道可能你也会开始不喜欢我吧??' 但他竟然说:'哪里会? 还有..记得不要讨厌你自己!!'  我真的很开心...我也很幸运有他这样的妹妹...谢谢老天把他带到我身边... :) 谢谢你 ♥

Look Forward to My Birthday

When I'm in primary school.. I celebrated my birthday with my the most best friend,YanJin together every year.. She is same birthday with me!! I'm so lucky to have a  best friend which same birthday with me so we can celebrated it together.. But our friends need to prepare 2 presents at the same time ><
Since we come to secondary school.. she got her new friends and she got so many things to busy... Me too.. But until today.. still nobody can replace her in my heart.. I can't say that now she is still the most best friend for me but her position in my heart will never change.. And who is my most best friend currently?? I don't know..
And since secondary school.. we already didn't celebrate our birthday together for few years.. And this few years, I also didn't celebrate it with other people.. And I'm so LUCKY that this few years my birthday is in exam week.. Pity me /.\
Actually.. I love my birthday and Christmas the most.. But I am alone during my birthday and Christmas this few years..
This few years.. I didn't celebrate my birthday but I always looking forward to it... But every year I get disappointed and I just celebrate it for myself..
This year.. I am looking forward too.. this year birthday finally is on holiday.. But activities' day!!
I know it will just be the same as last few years.. But I don't know why am I still looking forward..
I always imagine that somebody will give me surprise or what.. I imagine every year.. But it never happen.. It just a dream.. a sweet sweet dream..
Recently.. I keep asking my friends remember buy present for me.. many of them don't even know when is my birthday.. But I not really care it.. And I not really want presents.. I just hope somebody will celebrate my birthday with me.. I don't want alone anymore!! = = No matter how will my birthday in 2012 be..It is not important anymore... As long as I become more mature and independent :)

无形 无心的伤害

Today.. I only know that I really hurt somebody so much.. /.\
Actually something happen on 5.2.2012 at Peter Foong's farewell..
When the time we take photo.. I said I wanna take photo with kahdong and wenhow.. I stand in front them then I forget why after that I go to their back and stand on the chair behind them..
That day.. I don't know why wh so initiative.. He call me put my head between he and kd.. I thought he just want like take photo together and look more close.. How know he say want like wanna kiss me.. I get shocked that time.. Wnnie is the photographer that time..
When he say that.. My mind just appears Wnnie.. I know she will unhappy.. She last time told me that she put down d.. But I know she haven't..
But that time I didn't reject.. cause I feel that kd mostly don't want ehh.. Cause really paisheh maa.. some times girls do that also will feel paisheh d.. And now is boy and girls @@..
kd keep laughing.. and we take many time.. cause every time take.. kd can't control himself and laugh.. This is normal response!! But wh like very serious aneh lehh @@

I hurt her :'(

When we take the photo.. I really feel that wh very close to me.. like wanna kiss me d..and kd I feel that still got some distance.. wh really really very near.. sueying also say that can see it through the photo..==
Today. I go to school and ask wnnie 'hey.. that day we take the photo like this you angry o?' At 1st she say nothing.. After I ask many times.. she say '有一点心痛咯,不用紧的啦!' with a smiley face..
When she say that.. I say many time sorry and I say 我不是故意的.. I damn hate mys!elf that time
I know sorry doesn't mean anything at all!! cause I seriously hate that too!! But why I do so?? I don't know what am I doing..
这就好像特地做错事,再说对不起...很虚伪咯!!! '对不起'这三个字只会让人更讨厌!!!
我知道..但为什么我还这么做???她是没怎样,但自己深知她是很不好受的 :'(
I rather she hate me.. Cause I can't forgive myself doing that..


Last night.. she shared a link in facebook.. When a girl share the song.. means she really love that song much or the song means something to her or the lyrics of the song is what she think and feel right now..
不甘心不放手.. </3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XguUGPurn30&feature=related
when I listen to it.. I feel that I really hurt her deeply..


Actually.. I really didn't have any feel to him at all.. I really just treat him as my brother.. But I don't know what he think laa.. I hope that is NOTHING.

我觉得自己真的很丑陋 真的很可恶

I don't know what am I thinking..

Vida--the most important person in my heart and life..
But.. I don't know why.. I dislike her recently..
She is just 5 year-old girl.. But she is so no manners and feel like she herself very clever or what.. her grandma them also didn't scold her on her attitude.. I really beh tahan.. Wanna slap her let her wake up.. She is not the queen!! Not everyone must follow her.. So young already like this.. When she grow up.. how will it be??
江山易改  本性难移!!

And me..
原来伤了你所爱的人，自己也不会好受 :'(
When  kimpo ask em that 'you feel that i still got sayang you after Vida born?' I say 'no' but not seriously.. She say '摸你的心了再说..' When she say this.. I know I really hurt her... Actually I know she love me.. And I just play a fool.. But some times some fool will become a kind of injury /.\
I'm so sorry... @@ And I know sorry no cure

Peter Foong's Farewell 5.2.2012

Peter Foong,my x-bc teacher.. he gonna go maktab guru.. So.. he held a farewell and invite students of 4M2/2011 to his tution centre.. But.. Every time gathering,our class just few members will attend.. and every time gathering.. I will try my best to attend cause I really love this class much..
I 6.40pm reached bomba and wait for Wnnie.. Then we together walk to the tuition centre meet up wenhow,hoimenn,kahdong,chingyang and choonhoong,we have a dinner at a kopitiam..
Actually.. this farewell really bored /.\ Nothing eat.. nothing do.. we go there then boys play the cards.. And girls just chatting there.. Until teacher come.. then we chat with him.. But also only girls..
I use this chance to ask him that I suitable to which career.. he said I suitable in services.. Exactly..I like service too :)
Actually.. He is not feeling well.. so he go back earlier. Left us.. We start take some photo then we go back..
That day.. Choonhoong's girlfriend also got go.. She just smaller than me 1 year old.. and she like not independent at all and always need choonhoong at her side.. Seriously.. I dislike this kind of girl.. She is lucky cause choonhoong always give her hug. But I really beh kua lurr... Like that eh couple /.\
Evelynn fetch me back.. Before back.. She wanna go buy rojak.. On the way go and buy rojak and the way back to her home.. I also ask her for which career suitable to me.. What should I study after graduate.. After I told her what I like and what I want.. She say I go and study Business and Management is the best.. I got think before.. and I think I will really choose that.. :)

With Peter Foong :)

                     They wanna kiss me ><

Best photo of the day :)

Visit Old Folk's Home--DUTY

Wake up at 5.30am.. Damn sleepy.. Jin Young said interactors must reach school at 6.30am..

When I reach school.. the 1st person I saw is RuSin.. But she didn't smile to me :( So.. I wonder that is that RuSin?? Why she didn't smile to me?? Or SHE is another person?? My eyes quite blur.. @@

Until I walk to her front.. I only confirm that she is RuSin== 

When the time reach 6.30am. Just a few members reach.. Where are the others?? I seriously hate those who are not punctual..

Actually.. I love visit the old folk's home the most among those activities in Interact. I feel that we really can learn many thing through this meaningful activity :)
This is the 1st time I be a small leader.. Actually I do not feel pressure because this is not a big activity ^^

When we reach there.. Just explain to the juniors.. 

I was in-charge for 2nd floor.. There just have 2 rooms.. And each room just have 2-3 old man== 

Argh!! Then we need so many members for what??

I admit that.. I can treat other old people very patiently and more caring.. But to my own grandparents.. I am like the another person @@ I regret and I also don't know what to do.. I really don't know how to communicate with them /.\

This year..Our members increase double compared to last year,but the old people in the old folk's home decrease a lot.. Is this a good news?? Nowadays young people know how to spend their time take care of their parents?? Or this old folk's home got problem? I am wondering...

Seriously.. This year performance are so boring without the drama.. I don't know why Mr.Goh say not enough time.. This year performance end so fast /.\ When it is the turn for Chinese Orchresta , me and Hui-Chuin's sleep at the same time.. And we laugh at each other xD I feel that dance club are most worst compared to previous year... Their dance really sucks.. The best performance  for old folk's home is Choir.. At least I feel that they got the Chinese New Year feel.. All of us can follow them sing together :)

Some of the old peoples are so cute.. They clap hands without follow the tempo >< 

Hope they are really happy and like our school's performance :)

The best news of the day is-----Our school give us angpau!! The very 1st year.. Woohoo!! Thanks :)

Photo of the day--With my dearest sisters :)

Hello :)

I want to write my personal blog since long time ago.. But I never really do it...
Today.. Finally I done!! But I not really like my design.. looks too simple and not really my style.. /.\
I'm so tired to continue doing that..
When I am free.. I promise myself.. I will design it all over again.. :)
I know I am so stupid @@
From creating account until design my blog.. I face lots of problems..
Luckily.. I got my dear WenXin... Thanks so much my deradearestestestest sis <3